I'm sitting in my car on a lay-by on the way to see H.
And my head won't stop spinning again.

So.
I went there.
And it was beautiful.

I walked, for what seemed like an age.
Soaking in the atmosphere.
But in all that time no great epiphany came.
Nothing parted in the clouds and hit me like a thunderbolt.

Until.
I thought I should actually talk to some of them.
My data.
The real human people who make up these endless stats.

I know I'm not supposed to.
But then I noticed someone sitting, on their own.
And I just felt drawn to them.

So I took a seat next to them and struck up a conversation.
And, unbelievably, she knew exactly what I was doing.
And before I knew it I told her everything.
And she understood.
This random subject understood me.
Everything I said.
She understood.

It was an amazing feeling, to suddenly be within the depth of such a discussion.
And she want to know.
And I wanted to tell her.

And before I knew it I was already late to meet H, but I just couldn't tear myself way from this other woman.
Let's call her J.
And then I was frantically ringing H and apologising for being late.
And now I'm even more late.
I best stop writing.

I'm still not sure what happened this morning.
But something did.